I agree with the poster who said to tell your doc about what this brings up for you. I think you should be given another option considering the bad history this stirs up. I'm so sorry for how your step mom treated you Hun. That sounds terrible.

When I was prescribed Paxil, my friend (whose father was a psychiatrist) smiled all weird and told me it would help me lose weight. Instead, it make me so manic and pack on weight super fast at the same time. I took it a few times with the same results. That doesn't mean you will have these side effects though. It did help my depression and social anxiety though. (((Hugs)))