I'm 31 now, and despite my age, I have only had a few girlfriends briefly. In 2007, I was unofficially diagnosed with autism. One girl, I spent years looking for, just to get screwed over by her (no, not in a sexual way either). She was just a sad, selfish, waste of space user, and a lying you know what.

Anyway, I've often had issues with escorts. My family won't allow me to bring sex workers into the house. Many times, I never feel relaxed enough to get an erection unless I use a drug that helps, and having feelings of social anxiety in public lowers my libido too, and when I want to go out, despite my age, my mother asks me a whole ton of questions about where I'm going, which also makes me feel odd. She knows I see escorts and rather than understand that I have needs, she tries to dissuade me or threaten me somehow. I've wasted hundreds of pounds trying to bang women, and gotten nowhere doing so.

I think I've only enjoyed sex and been able to have an orgasm twice out of the dozens of times I've used escorts, whether it's doing it in massage parlors or doing an in call where I go to their flats. Some escorts are quite nice in general, but many of them unfortunately, are cold and extremely nasty, and potentially dangerous. Foreigners are especially horrid.

They often will lie about their 'services' (you can normally see a list on their online profiles) and they generally try to get more money out of you, and lie, or cut the session short. Sometimes, I've left their premises amid abusive treatment and felt rather bad, like the ground beneath my feet suddenly opened up and swallowed me whole. One woman who was traveling around the country saw me in my city last year, then denied all knowledge of even seeing me when I left her bad feedback, as a client should. Because why be subjected to such rudeness and dishonesty, and not let others see that they are not offering a good service? It's made me lose faith in females. It really has affected my self-esteem. How these people can make you feel like an ant being burned alive under a magnifying glass is truly awful.

I'm attracted to Thai transsexuals (referring to such a person as a "ladyboy" or katoey is a non-derogatory term for this culture) and some guy labelled me a 'bum boxer' once after I said I'd been with one, and I'd happily do it again.

Well, a transsexual is obviously a person who is biologically a male or women but undergoes treatment to appear like they are a member of the opposite sex, and would prefer to be respectfully addressed as either a man or a woman. How sad is that comment? Honestly - why the heck do you get such stupid idiots in this lifetime that just take the biscuit?

If my girlfriend had a penis, I'd count that as a badge of honor, laugh in their faces, and make everybody feel jealous. But seriously: I need to eradicate all these nasty people from my life. For if I don't do it soon, I'm worried that they'll rule over me until the day I die.