art T,

this sucks. I don't want to leave you. But there's no other option. So no point in dragging this out, right? And now you cancel our final session this week. Because you're ill. Bad timing or what?!

This is f****g painful. It hurts. Now I'll have to keep going like this for another week! Until today I had the vague hope that the worst might be over by the end of this week. That things might at least start to look slightly better. That maybe I'd have one or two referrals that I could set up appointments with. Check them out. Moving on and staying busy.

I know. You would probably say right now that is ok to feel sad. That I should allow myself to feel my sadness about all this. Stay true to my feelings and all the rest... Maybe you'd even admit that you feel sad about saying good-bye too... Well. Don't even think about going off this tangent. The little ones won't take it well. After all it is you who started all this mess. So you'd better not give me all this BS that this is difficult for you too...

You cancelling tomorrow's session has stirred up all those mixed feelings that I had put so nicely on hold. Don't know whether I'll manage to put them back on hold until next week. Which makes the little ones slightly difficult to manage. We might have an 'interesting' final session - just to give you some advance warning...

cr.