At least you have a doctor who cares about you. I don't think they can force you off a med like that if it's working. Go to their boss. im really surprised your doctor is doing this, mine just keep telling me I will have to take these meds for life. I'm glad you have something that is working but if you are this stressed and smoking like a chimney, is it really working as effectively as you think? I'm not saying it's not, just saying I hope you find even more stability than you have currently. Brain shrinkage is so horrifying, but so are the alternatives so I can see both of your POW's on this subject. Psychosis damages the brain also. Mental illness is just a bunch of bad news toppled upon more bad news. Good luck.