Thanks Rose and Open...I think I'm just going to step away for a while and focus on myself. I just getvlonely and every human desires affection. It's very difficult and hard. I am seeing therapy for myself to work on my issues but it takes 2 to make a marriage work. I'm not going to waste the rest of my life for her to make a decision but I am not ready to give up just yet. I believe the 180 will help get me back on track. Just keep it about the kids and that's it.