School girl crushes I can relate to. I used to have major crushes on a few people growing up....I think I know what you're talking about. I'm ok with it happening as I'd never act on it and it feels nice and is part of the beauty of living. im so sorry to hear you must live in such isolation. I do too....I want to get out and enjoy what the world has to offer but I'm not sure it's in the cards for me. National Geographic put out the Genius series and I recommend it. They call it a world wide event. They've only shown 2 episodes of it so far and it's very interesting to learn about how young Einstein developed into the man we all know of.