I am hurting for you. I had a very similar situation. But this was after being married only 8 months to a cheating husband. I insisted on marriage counseling only to hear that night that he did not love me and did not think he ever did. I really do not understand why he does not want to end the relationship but that is something for you both to decide. For me it would probably be even more painful to live everyday with someone that, like you said would never be sharing intimacy with you, especially since you still want it. The emptiness you feel is very cold I know and I am glad you have pc for support. I know it is not the same, but I am sending you Big Hugs!