Hi, I'm 19, in my second year of university. I've been struggling with bulimia for over a year now, but recently it's been getting pretty bad... My parents recently divorced, the love of my life left me, and everyone is expecting me to be this perfect genius in school (I'm in a pre-med program). Mostly, I guess, I've been pressuring myself to be perfect. I'm 6'00, 145 lbs, apparently I'm extremely thin, but I can't help but see a fat slob in the mirror... I've been bingeing/purging every day, maybe even twice in the same day for the past two weeks... I don't know what to do, and I know I'm hurting my body... badly.

I just don't know what counseling is really going to do for me. It just seems like a waste of time and resources. I tried making a food journal, and try to follow "food plans" but they all fall to nothing whenever I decide to binge... which is triggered almost every time I eat.

It's just really frustrating. And I was hoping to get some insight from people who are going through/ have gone through all of this.

Thanks in advance