Thanks for the answers everyone. I thought it sounded more in the realm of psychosis as well, although I'm much too lucid and it's much too back and forth. Also too short of a time period each time. I will probably look for other opinions as well, maybe from professionals, but it seems I'm one of those people stuck in the gray area where "diagnosis" and getting shoved into that tiny box of qualifications just doesn't fit me. I may also just need to accept that and stop chasing a quote on quote "answer" and just work on myself outside of all the labels. I don't know.