Winter skies spill rain so cold
the sound of dripping, calming I'm told
But no calm here, just a constant gloom,
In the background speaks the voice of doom.

Days like this are getting less
but still they leave me in a mess.
Slate Grey skies not bringing cheer
Troubled hours again I fear....

Sanctuary here is wearing thin
puts all my thoughts in a dangerous spin
a site to help, within it's walls
I've done no harm yet harm I've caused?!!!!

Lies were told many months ago
damaged my heart, trying to let go
How can I move on through dragged up pain
Just dont know what all this would gain.....

Don't always believe what's told through ale
don't judge people it can make them fail....
at becoming well just adds to the pain
A misunderstanding has become a strain.....

Still true friends will believe in me
Hold me close and set me free
from hurt that's caused by life and lies
this thought lifts a veil from my tired eyes....

sighing, Jin xx

It just ceases to amaze me how people can be so cruel and spiteful, causing pain and distress, bringing up past issues that were said in haste and totally untrue, I really don't need this kind of crap, it's like a school playground out there.....
what did I ever do to deserve such words cast in my direction?

sorry, going back to something that happened in my life...I had a bad dream last night that triggered me......brings back all those old feelings of being talked about behind my back, the silent calls, the feelings of dread in my stomach, all caused by someone who supposedly loved me, yet in my hour of need deserted me...like everyoe important in my life ever has.......

I didn't deserve any of it......

Jinny