Hi and welcome to pc...

I am 43 and suffered childhood abuse from 8-15 sexual abuse that is...emotional abuse from 2/3....

I sometimes feel my whole life has been a lie because I've lived through a 'mask' until now when a bad bout of anxiety and depression made me seek proper help from a qualified therapist....I was abused by a pdoc my mum was having an affair with....

The only thing I can say is try to get some help, journal, reach out here and dont be ashamed of feel in any way guilty....

It will take a long time to learn how to live with waht happened to me but I am learning to cope slowly although there are still many triggers and dreams along the way...

pm me anytime if you need to talk....jinnyann xxxx