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Originally Posted by Skies
I think it's progress, too, and working through transference feelings. And vulnerability coinciding with that young part of you emerging. Not from a judgment perspective, but as a pattern person, I noticed a change from adult expressions of yourself to expressions from a really young place.
The adult more intellectualized; child parts raw. I remember when my child feelings emerged in session, it felt like I was unfrozen. Aside from the awful dissociative stuff, only thinking of the positive stuff here, I felt like it was like experiencing myself for the first time. It felt beautiful as it was unfolding, the love feelings in the relationship from my child parts. This was long ago.
Agree you're doing really good work and were brave.
ps maybe he's not responding right away to give you time to explore all this stuff, to give you space. If he responds right away, the exploration doesn't happen the same way. When he interjects, your focus changes from you to him. If he gives you space, you can work at processing and understanding feelings. Speaking of inner child, kind of like a parent who doesn't rush to interject each time so the child learns and grows.
Pps sorry, im scatterbrained. He said he wouldnt intentionally not answer.
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Thanks for the response and sharing your inner child experience in therapy. It's interesting that you could tell a difference in my tone when writing from the child vs adult place.
That makes sense if he's waiting to respond--I think he's also learned by now that I often send one email....then a couple hours or days later I send one with what I *really* wanted to say. Or saying what I'm looking for in a response.
I'm still worried he's choosing not to respond for other reasons (though he may not have even read them yet!) But I hope he'd be true to his word and tell me if emails were an issue--that conversation came about after I asked T why she hadn't responded to an email that I felt warranted a response and she went on about how I was emailing her too much and they kept getting longer (much longer than these to MC). But I wouldn't have known that if I hadn't asked--which is one of my biggest fears with people, including H--that they are angry or upset with me about something but not telling me.