T,
I know you're trying really hard to provide me with reassurance, but it keeps quickly fading away. I miss you already! I will only email you tomorrow night and then wait to see you next week. That's my plan at least.

I really hope the healing plate looks good on Friday. Otherwise I'll be too embarrassed to see you. Ugh! I need to see you! I'm so scared of Friday. I'm going to be so ugly. How am I even going to let my fiance see me!?!?

I've been trying hard to cope. I'm cleaning and organizing the house, painting glass, crocheting a blanket for my sister's baby, designing the guest room, taking a bath, Ativan, watching TV, watching movies, playing with the dogs, working on a family tree, etc.

Please still be there. Please still be patient. I'm trying really hard to be good. A lot is happening right now. I really really need you!