So I have been feeling rather calm for nearly a week. I have even thought that I don't belong at PC anymore but have just decided to stay hoping to be occassionally encouraging (Plus I just like so many people here). Not this morning. Right before waking, dreamed my left hand was gripping my neck to the point of choking myself but felt to paralyzed to stop, awaken myself, etc. It felt like I was on my back (side sleeper) and it seemed to go on and on with my anxiety heightening the longer it went on. Upon finally waking myself up, my anxiety was extreme (and I don't know why). Took an anxiety medication--something I now only rarely take. Maybe I do still belong here.