is your depression always severe, or do you have episodes of mild depression as well? Sometimes I wonder if I've actually been mildly depressed for a really long time and it's just punctuated with days and weeks of severe depression...I say this because I used to be so much more motivated and excited about life. Now, even when I'm not acutely sad or hopeless, there is still this part of me that just wants the day to be over already, like I just can't break through to that other side.