My husband and I thought I had BP so I went in to talk and ask and the next think I knew, BP1 was in my file. I thought it was BP2 and wanted it removed from my file all together but they just keep adding more and now it's schizoeffective. So not all people who come in thinking they might have it are wrong and I have plenty of evidence to support that I have something in the same family at least....but I totally relate to thinking "I don't have it, those episodes were flukes brought on by too much stress and will never happen again. Not only do they keep happening, they come on stronger each time so I'm out of denial....at least for the time being. My husband says I will never gave another episode if I stay on medications but I've been reading forums and blogs and this doesn't seem realistic. I still hope though. Do you think BP2 resonates ore for you or do you think you don't have mental illness at all? I know how hard it is to accept, even when the evidence is staring you dead in the eyes. For me, mental illness is my normal but it's not normal for most people and I definitely feel different to my peers so something is wrong and off and I just focus on symptoms and hope for the best at this point. (((Hugs)))