Because there might just be light at the end of the tunnel and it might be around a corner out of sight. Do you think your meds need to be reviewed to give you some relief? I think there is a place for you....you just might not know it yet. I've been through this and won't be hypocritical and say it will miraculously change in a second but you have to hold on and fight. You're too valuable. Thinking of you....