wow. this is all heavy! i wish there was something to say that was comforting and could erase this pain. all i know is i have had to have my meds. rationed out to me b/c i couldn't be trusted w/ them and i have NEVER lived on by myself. i get freaked out sometimes wondering if i will ever be able to live alone. if you need to vent or want to talk you can feel free to PM me.