Hi, I'm really struggling. I've felt like nothing has gone right for me for several months. I know it's not as bad as I feel, though it's pretty bad, but I can't stop crying. I'm dealing with what I think is ptsd and when I get triggered, it's bad. Suicide pops into my head. I want to throw away everything I've been working towards. I won't be able to sleep for days. I feel like I'm going crazy. Please any advice?