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Old Dec 06, 2007, 12:14 PM
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As always, thanks to everyone for your support.

Last night she arrived home at about 11pm after a marathon session of xmas shopping. I'm not complaining on that front, it was nice to have the evening to myself and she really only has this week to get her share of the shopping done (I just do mine online).

But when she got home the conflict resolved the way it always does, she pretended like it never happened. And I reacted to that the way I always do, I masked my emotions and pretended the same thing. I was back in my bed reflecting on the previous day. Is this healthy? I still feel hurt and frustrated but is it better to just let the scab form and try to forget about it? Nothing is resolved this way but at least we're playing nice.

It's kind of rhetorical in so much as we've done this dance for years and we will play happy until the pressure cooker explodes once again. Until then, I will feel disconnected from her and wonder what this says about me, her, and us.

So it goes.

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