How exactly does one "work on being stronger"? And it's not the aspect of "diversifying" my support that's the issue, it's the fact that I would be starting from square one, with 0. Yeah sure, with time I bet I would be able to create a whole new support system and my own ideal life. But at this moment in time, when I haven't figured out how to "work on being stronger", I can't get past the black and white thinking of how wrong it all will go.