Yeah, I can somewhat relate, though, as MsLizette has said, that kind of "stable" doesn't seem to mean the same as "good".

I have an issue with the daily grey-ness of life, what seems to be okay for others, I somehow cannot accept that. Even though I think I want peace and quiet, when I have it without limits, it feels like it will eat me alive.
I used to meditate and have these days when I thought I'm okay and stable, just to "wake up" feeling like I'm lost and drowning.

I say I hate drama but I seem to be losing myself when it's all "stable". Or sliding into an invisible depression.

I know though that there should be a way to keep life exciting but still stable. I'm still experimenting, hoping I'll find it one day. Maybe it'll come from self acceptance in my case, if ever.

Sorry, I made this all about myself here. I don't think it is worth to sacrifice everything just to be stable, not like that. But I don't know your situation. You sound kinda depressed, which is not the "good stable".
When you said you quit the meds and all was falling apart how long did you stay like that, without meds and what was happening?