Humpty Dumpty, I hope you will reconsider. I'm sorry you're having such a tough time and that you are so, so tired. I take it you've been fighting this for a long time? Would it help to reach out to your pdoc or therapist? Your family needs you. There is some small part of you that must want to live to post in the first place. Hang on and keep fighting. I just wanted to lend my support.