The last years have been hell. I tried so many things that didn't work, and I moved countries three times.

I feel exhausted, and I just feel I don't want to do or try anything again.
I have no friends here but I don't want any.
I have no job but I don't want one.
I have stopped playing music but I don't want to start again.
I just feel I am surviving for other people (my BF and my parents), but if they were gone I would just give up.

Feels so exhausting to live like this