((Hugs)) I know what it's like to feel this way. I have struggled for a long time without purpose, or anything in life. Do you have a therapist? Pdoc? On any meds? If you are you may want to discuss some changes to help get you through.

I personally fight through it. I am on meds now but I refuse to change to anything else because all I need is something to fight the mania, (I am bipolar). What I suggest is to try to listen to music like you used to play, maybe that will give you inspiration to play again? I don't know.

You are lucky to have your bf and your parents. I am glad you are there for them. Hopefully you find some peace soon.