Aww, thanks for asking Demunie, that means a lot.

It was a very interesting session, which I may type up later in the 'in session' thread, but I guess, in a way, it was resolved, yes. For now, at least. With regards to the statement she made, she said that it was just a random statement, that clearly wasn't helpful. She said that she does share a lot more of her thoughts and feelings with me than she does with most people, because I find it helpful, and that sometimes, because of this, she will miss the mark. She explained that sometimes she will be with me, understanding, and sometimes she won't. I get that.

She also acknowledged that it had lifted the lid on a lot of other things. She read that I had been angry and alone, and said that the email that I sent was hard for her, and that, for her, it would have been good to see me straight away, or the next day, to help repair that and to help me realise that I wasn't on my own, but that she also thought that maybe I needed to work through that anger and aloneness, alone. I think she is right, because it did bring out a lot of other things and I arrived in session ready to listen to what she had to say, which I might not have done the next day. I don't know, but it was good to hear that she wanted to see me and repair it straight away, if nothing else.

She said she was a little surprised to hear that I don't hear her validating my experiences, or know what she thinks of my past, because her experience of it is that she has explained it, has validated me, but she listened to me and heard what I had to say and accepted that maybe I can't hear her because she is silently sitting with my pain. That does not come across to me at all, and she had agreed to try to express what she is doing in these cases. She also said that maybe a lot of what she has said had gone 'over my head'. (Said in a nice way, not a patronising way.) ETA. She said that sometimes she doesn't say anything because 'she' feels like words are not enough, or because she doesn't have the words to express herself. But she did acknowledge that I may need more words, and said that she would try. I think that this happens more often that she is aware of.

There was a lot more too, which I will write up, but not here.

One of the things that she said right at the end was about us meeting again on Tuesday, and starting again, or something like that. It felt like we could do this. She was incredibly open and honest with me, about all of this, which I am always appreciative of, even though it is hard to hear sometimes. She doesn't lie, and that is important to me.

Thanks again.