I'm already down the well.

Husband did his usual response that triggers me. I see it's really me who starts it because I'm Borderline. I've explained it to him so honestly, but he'll never understand me. We'll never work. Depression.

Plus I'm hurt that my sister doesn't care to ask to see me. My mother and dad are what they are and that ended badly.

So I canceled the plans to go to a party tonight, and to go for dinner for Mother's Day. I took to bed. My eating issues kicked in, not eating, too upset. Nicely told my h and older son to just eat and take care of themselves.

I don't do well with holidays, with weekends, with this fallout from family, with the same stupid struggle with my h.

So I'm sick in bed with a raging headache.

No more SH though. I got used to the raw pain.