Sometimes I wished I was Gnash-- he's unconcerned with the opinions of others, good at staying relaxed, confident, witty and sarcastic, and extremely interesting. (All that in spite of his raging addictions and festering self-hatred.) We became good friends after many years of power struggles. I no longer felt like Gnash was other than me, and began to feel him with me. He began talking to me all the time and we interacted on a very deep level. Then we started fronting together, then we blended, and merged. That's a very long story. My friend who knew both of us says she can see the perfect mixture between the two of us. I am Gnash and Gnash is me. Now I don't so much wish I was one of the others. Especially because it's easier for me to recognize my own value these days, and because it's easier for me to see the others as me, even if we are separate.