I've just come back from NYC...My first flight, my first holiday sober...I done it ....oh I didn't do it easily though LOL. I experienced fears and anxiety like I've never experienced before...I emailed T and she was really helpful and said I could email her as much as I wanted and it was ok to use her as a "skin"...I didn't email her everyday though....Now I'm home I feel different..something in me has changed...for the good....the good parts were it snowed and we got to ice skate in the snow with xmas music playing the xmas trees looked wonderful.....I lived my dream