I went through that thought process myself. The whole "I PAY you to hear me/listen to me/spend time with me" was one of the hardest things for me to get past.

Now I kind of think that if he didn't care that he wouldn't still have me as a patient. I see it more as he cares for me medically rather than emotionally.

The love thing is hard for me to process as well. I don't love him and he doesn't love me. I think my mind is just too logical to allow the corrective emotional experience to occur. I think too much rather than feel.