That's all. I hate laziness. I hate that I almost feel unconscious and lifeless. I hate not doing anything and being ok with that. I want my brain to wake up and to be more proactive, but I rarely can find the strenght inside of me.

I want strong feeling, I like strong feelings. I don't want to be anxious. I am tired of postponing everything. Everything is always tomorrow. It must be today.

And I am almost waked up inside when is 5am and I haven't sleep.

If I knew how to motivate myself and how to make me remember of doing that...