For me it is like being forced to sit and watch a horror movie. I can't escape it and have to watch it until the end. I also experience the feelings I felt at that age as the abuse was happening. I'm basically reliving the abuse. The body memories are very strong but the visual is blurry but it doesn't negate the intensity of the experience.

But I believe all this is part of the healing journey. My body wants me to relive the trauma so as to heal. It may sound counter-intuitive but somehow it works for me when dealing with flashbacks.