i can see no light at the end of the tunnel, . it has become that bad lately that i am questioning my reasons for being here on pc.......
i have changed my aviator because i just couldnt be the funny old trm anymore, my mood is changing and i am letting my demons start to take control again........
i am just fed up being ill all the time, im not any help at home, making decisions or opening the mail scares me to death.
a couple weeks ago i asked my pdoc to put me in hospital, for my own safety,......... he refused,,,, and told me to start taking my meds again........ so thats what im doing.
but do i feel any safer ???? the answer is ......... i have just got fed up being ill all the time.

i have pmed the doc to ask for advice over my membership.............

dec xox