I have been seeing my T for almost 6 months and until now I have been holding back some. He is getting maybe 85% of the story. The other 15% is about sex and how I have been using it to punish myself....probably not healthy. Problem is that I can't seem to articulate that too him. I figure a big part of it is that he is a man, he's close to my age, and he is not unfortunate looking. I feel this is definitely something I need to address but can't seem to actually say it. How much can I or should I tell him? He is also our MC (he sees both my husband and I individually as well) so maybe it would be better to bring it up then?

*sigh*

I have no idea what to do.