Music or write out everything your feeling. I had/have issues with my "father" And on my computer I have a 2 page paper explaining why and it actually helps. Obviously I'm not planning on giving it to him because it would break him but sometimes you just need to get it out and then toss it. My mom also said to just look up and take a deep breath and I got this. Don't look down and don't look backwards look forward and up and you can go anywhere you want. And her saying has helped me. I hope it will help you