I have failed to put my disabling breakdown in the past...I just cant do it..this breakdown puts me in the category of the untouchables...

I repeat an old saying-----------------------
the moving finger writes
and having written
moves on
nor all your piety nor wit
we lure it back to cancel half a line...
nor all your tears wash away a word of it..

and I would add no matter how angry I get it doesn't fix my problem

I have thought about how people kill themselves because they cannot deal with something..my cousin hung himself because he couldn't come out of the closet...
I wonder if my cousin ever thought about killing others not himself..