I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. I hate that regret and shame are what you are feeling because you should be so proud of yourself for fighting back and getting back on your feet. My goodness you had two children and postpartum depression! You are brave and strong. I am or was a CPA with a career I loved and was moving up the ladder but had to leave my career several years ago due to mental health issues so I do understand the regret but you are looking into getting back into the game so let the regret go. Your partner is not helping you by being unsupportive. Is this an issue you can talk with him about? It's really unfortunate. I hope you can tune him out and be compassionate with yourself. You deserve it. You'll get back on track soon enough. You're headed in the right direction. Just wanted to lend my support.