Hi ACQPL

I don't see anything you say as ungrateful, it's "just" telling it as it is, right?! And we want to know how it is for you, because we care

I am sorry it's been so hard for you
But you're never alone here, if you don't know what to say/haven't got the words/the inclination/the energy why not just drop by and say something like "Things are tough, can do with a hug", we're here for you and we're rooting for you........but just say whatever you want to say, no judgement here

And I guess it's about finding the right people IRL to reach out to really........maybe get a feel of how understanding they might be by starting off by saying just a little and see what their responses are like and then go from there...........of course some people are more understanding than others.........if some people aren't/haven't been "receptive" though, remember it's not about them rejecting you........it's wholy about them not being able to empthasise with what you're going through or not being able to "get with it", it's not about you at all, it's all about them

Alison