DarknessIsMyFriend--

It is a terrible feeling when we have self doubt. When I read people's posts, I get a sense of them. Admittedly, part of it is what my imagination fills in since I do not see anyone IRL and only a handful have posted a picture of themself. Never pictured you as unintelligent. And you aren't completely dishonest because some of the things you post are like confessions--confessions are things we rarely admit because they are things we have done and thought that we feel would not be accepted by others. You do have anger issues about how you were treated in your youth. I feel like anger issues cause "arrested development"--they make it hard to move on because we replay/or react inappropriately because the emotions resurface at unwelcome times. I don't hate you or think you are a coward. You are trying to make it in this world as well as you can. You have posted many kind things on my threads. I like you. Hopefully, some of your anger will become less intense as the years go by....