All I have to say, is the old saying "hurry up and wait." Things unfold as they are meant to. I am struggling a lot myself career wise because well....I just can't seem to get it right. I am at the burnt part at both ends of the candle, and there is just nothing I can do about it.

I understand your pain and anger. I have no advice, because I know for me, I am in the same exact place. But what keeps me going, is that I know tomorrow will come, and I will find something to make me happy eventually and I just well suck it up and keep moving forward.

Hold on. Tomorrow is just over the horizon.