So there was a guy who I went out on a couple of dates with and he and I talked about getting serious someday and that we were proudly proclaiming we had both never cheated on anyone before in our lives. After the second date, I was beginning to realize that it wasn't working out, that I couldn't feel anything for him, despite he and I having thousands of things in common and all. He and I kind of left off things by sort of not talking to one another anymore. It was all kind of weird.

Anyways, a few weeks later, I start up my Match.com profile again, thinking, "Well, we weren't really being all exclusive or anything, and he and I left things kind of...eh?" I guess I was trying to make things end more definitively in my mind. Along comes another guy, via the dating site, and though we have less things in common, he and I just click better, I feel. We've gone out on one date already and made plans for a second (watching a movie tomorrow). We've been texting AND talking on the phone, before we met, and I plan on calling him again tonight.

The catch? I feel guilty about seeing him when things were left so enigmatic and up in the air with the first guy. You see, I've NEVER really been the one to break it off. I never initiated a break up before, and technically, since we weren't even dating exclusively yet, it wouldn't constitute as a breakup in any sense of the word, yet I couldn't just fess up to the guy that things weren't working out. All of this is new territory to me really.

So, the whole situation has me feeling super guilty and that I've somehow tarnished my record of never cheating on anyone before even though I'm technically NOT cheating. It just feels like I am I guess. I am certianly going on that second date, I'm just going to have to get over my feelings of guilt and "man up" as it were, despite being a woman. I guess I just need to grow a pair, albeit figuratively for obvious reasons.