I pretty much failed my first two years of college, took some time off to attend community college, and now I'm back at college.... Not to mention, I had straight As until 11th grade, when I got severely depressed and my family situation went from bad to awful.

So I've been there. I know the ups and downs and how your sense of self gets screwed up... but I wouldn't worry. Remember it is never too late. Taking your time is fine. Remember that you have your whole life ahead of you to accomplish things. Doing well in school is only one kind of accomplishment. You will achieve things in school, or out of school, which will bring you to your next opportunities. It's okay. This is not wasted time - you are growing even if you don't seem to be doing anything by society's standards. You have nothing to be ashamed of.

I'm glad your husband is supportive. It can mean the world to have just one person on your side....

I'm doing much better at college now... I would say study what you love. I don't know about you, but personally, I think school is stupid, though I'm very smart. I dislike learning in a system. I feel my personality often grates against systems, so even though I'm very smart, I don't necessarily get good grades. So, studying what I love helps me to perform within the school system and get good grades. I also can't muster up the strength to study subjects I don't care about, bad grades be damned. Studying what I love also keeps the joy in my life, I find. And you can't be mentally healthy without that. (I'm majoring in a statistically low earning field, but I guess I'm arrogant enough to believe I'll work it out. So believe in yourself.)

When I went back to college, I was so scared. My first semester back, I tried to block everything out and ignore everyone.... Your goal seems to be to get your bachelor's degree, and you believe that will help you in life. So I would just tune everything out because you have a goal, and you know what you're doing, and you know how you're going to make your life what you want it to be. Therefore, you shouldn't care what other people think - not peers, or anyone who could alter your view of yourself. Because your view of yourself is the correct one. (At least, that's how I approached my first semester back... it's hard to keep up.)

I think what helped also me was having time off from college to breathe and allow myself to grow personally instead of having to chase deadlines all the time (I was coming from a very confusing and bad childhood).

I might write more later because I have to go somewhere... I hope this helped, or at least you know you're not alone...

I wish you all the best. And, I hope what I wrote was relevant. I have a feeling I just started going on and on....