Fat load of good being a good person does me.

I wish I was a full fledged psychopath or sociopath that could use and hurt people to get ahead without feeling guilt or remorse all while not feeling any emotional attachment towards people. At least then, I would be able to get my basic needs met and be less unhappy from being alone than I am now.

As much as I romanticize sociopathy and fantasize about being one, I'm not one because I lack the charm to manipulate people into submission and I do have empathy for other's like me as much as I wish I didn't.

So yeah, I'm not even good enough to be a minion of darkness. I am worthless to everybody