When i was seeing my T about a year and 1/2 ago, one day I was having an especially hard time and I went to the health center (at my school) and asked the nurse if i could lie down for this period because i just couldn't go to class. I was so upset and was all red-faced from crying and so she brought me into a room by myself where i could sleep if i wanted.

I couldn't sleep at all though, and about a 1/2 into my "rest" i heard my T come into the Health Center (which is also where her office was). I heard her talking with the nurse there, and in my head i was secretly hoping that she might mention that I was in there. A couple minutes passed and i thought for sure my wishful thinking was never going to happen, which then just made things worse.

But ... But, then my T knocked lightly on the door and asked if it was Ok that she come in. My heart started pounding and i was thinking to myself "As if that actually happened."
Then she came and sat on the end of the bed with me. She made a joke about how luxurious it was so be able to come and lie down in here in the middle of class. Then she asked me how i was doing, and i just started crying. This was the first (and only) time i ever cried in front of her. Then she came over and gave me the biggest reassuring hug and just held me. Held me and rocked me back and forth until i calmed down.



How much i wish i could be in that exact same spot right now. I would give anything to have her back in my life ... or to be back in that life with her.

She's such a gentle caring person, and I was so lucky to have her in my life. Only problem now is, she's not so much .. and not a day goes by where i don't long to sit and talk with her. Hear her voice. Hear about how her day's going, or what trouble her little ones are getting in to.

She was my constant ... my one person that i knew i could trust, and who i could tell genuinely cared about me. Without her, i feel so lost. Floating along without anyone to help keep me grounded.

I need her.