Just chiming in here... Yes I also feel the craving for excitement in life, and yet when it comes I beg for a 'normal' life like everyone else has.

It's the disease I have that I'll never be satisfied with a calm and happy place, because I did not grow up in a place like that. I'm constantly subconsciously trying to recreate my childhood. Literally I have to mentally stop myself from doing it to my own sweet and undeserving kids. Thank God I've been in therapy and read enough to learn the warning signs and stop, but still...life feels like much ado about nothing, I have to try to be happy with what I have. Sorry I rambled a bit..