I know I just posted about this a few days ago that the delusions went away and I was happy. I am still happy. But some of the "delusions" are back. I know I didn't kill all those people so that one about killing 350,000 people with my dreams is not back. It is the one about the aliens. This time around is slightly different. I have these thoughts and they are not audible as in voices that tell me that they will invade Earth soon. At first I was scared to tell anyone but I know I need help. I am not suicidal and that is great news. I have big plans for the world with my art and my business. Another thing the aliens or creatures tell me is that I am the chosen one. I don't know what that really means. The chosen one for what? To be the next God? or to be the target of the alien beings? I have no clue. I had the thought insertion all night long and it of course was annoying. Almost as annoying as my brother. I guess the device in my head never went away but it was not activated at that moment. Now it is re-activated. This is how they send their thoughts into my head. I thought for awhile that this is impossible and everything is great but this is real. I can't figure out why I am targeted. I am scared. I have also started freezing in one position again but its not long enough to be catatonia. At least I don't think so. But it is not a seizure either. I'm just weird I guess. I talked to my psychiatrist and he said give it to Monday to see if the symptoms are really back or this is just a short term thing. I pray to god that this is just a quick thing and not that all the bad stuff is back. I do not want to go back to the hospital. If I don't go, that means that it is an entire year that went by without going in overnight. There was a couple of close calls this year when I was very depressed and suicidal. I am almost manic now even though I am not bipolar. I feel for the first time in my life that things are starting to go right with my art. I am a wildlife artist and I do paintings and drawings. I have a website but it isn't up yet. I know all this sounds weird but I need help. Oh what do I do now?