My husband (of 24yrs) do not have sex .. very very rarely do we "make love" .
He craves affection that i can not give him..i dont know how.
Because of my past and history of severe abuse and sexual abuse ... i can not stand to be touched for very long at all .. we do not sleep together.. he has the bed - i have the couch - been this way for many many years.
Been to therapy together about it but he denies having any issues..so we never get anywhere.
He thinks i use my mental illness as an excuse to not be with him like that.
He thinks i am here for him to finacially support me only.
He tries every day to touch me - doesnt work.
He refuses to communicate with me on a daily basis about outside issues and inside issues.
When i try to talk to him he acts like he does not hear a word i say.
We are buried in debt.
So many problems .. i cant satisfy him. i am basically the housekeeper here.
I dont know what to do or how to please him .. i do mast the work in the house .. i havent even had a car in 3 yrs. .. i feel stuck trapped etc..
i dont know what will become of us.
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"I see my light come shining
From the west unto the east.
Any day now, any day now,
I shall be released."
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