Hello 5chatzi: I'm sorry I probably don't have a lot of useful suggestions for you. From what you wrote, this appears to be a situation where you have become invested in a relationship that apparently was not what you thought it was. It sounds to me as though, while you've seen this as a budding romantic relationship, your friend has seen it more as a relationship where she's trying to be helpful & supportive but not romantically inclined. Of course, I don't know if that's actually the case or not. But it's the way this sounds to me. It may be that, in her desire to be of help to you, she overdid it to the point where you came to believe her intentions were different than they were.

Unfortunately I don't know as there is any "quick fix" here. You may need to seek the services of a counselor or therapist with whom you can delve into, & work through, how you're feeling about all of this. And beyond that I think you may simply have to get out there in real life & find some things to do, & some people to be involved with, so that you're no longer so dependent on this woman. It sounds to me as though the writing is probably on the wall, as the saying goes, in terms of this relationship.

I see this is your first post here on PC. So... to PsychCentral… from the Skeezyks! May the time you spend here be of benefit.

PsychCentral is a great place to get information as well as support for mental health issues. The more you post, & reply to other members’ posts, the more a part of the community you will become. Plus there are social groups you can join & chat rooms where you’ll be able to connect with other PC members in real time (once your first 5 posts have been reviewed & approved.) Lots of great stuff! So please keep posting!