All I can do is offer you my condolances. I am terrible when it comes to advice, and I don't think I'm really in a position at the moment to give you anything worth thinking about [my psychiatrist is telling me they think I'm psychotic].

You should be proud of your art, and you should be proud of the fact thats it's been a year since you were in a hospital. You are not suicidal! You're questioning whats happening right now, and you're looking for help. I'd say thats a good thing.

But you're scared. It can be hard to listen to people saying "get over it" or "it's not real" when it feels so real and all you can do is know that it's real, even if no one believes you. Maybe you could start questioning the aliens motives? Why would they stalk you, and what are they going to do, except be annoying and strange? Hopefully, it is just a short term thing.

Many good wishes to you, hope you feel better.