I do know how you feel about disillusionment, I saw a T for quite a long time too (and for far too long after the T turned mean ...) It was extremely damaging to my trust which was already one of my main issues
grrrrrrrrr And at least one other T seemed to care.... until I %#@&#! her off by not being the perfect patient Trouble was she reminded me of my stepmother, so that therapy was probably doomed from the start